Anyway, I turned 23 last September 23rd. It hasn't been much of a lucky year for me, apart from recently being and staying single now for 6 months and it feels great.
Its a friday night and its 11:00 pm now. I felt like I needed to write tonight. Get things off my chest.
My dog of almost 14 years passed away in May this year and I just can't get over it.
I get these dreams..or nightmares. I'm not exactly sure of what but I wake up screaming and crying. This happens very often. I feel like I'm on the verge of needing a shrink or something. I can't concentrate.
Tonight after work, I drove my uncle home and he mentioned he wanted to go apple picking soon. I told him I wouldn't be going anymore because it was a tradition my parents started when we got my dog when I was a kid. We would go a weekend before my birthday so it would be kinda like celebrating right before or something and my mom, the paparazzi of the family, would snap a billion pictures every year for this outing. I guess it hit me really bad today and I starting balling.
It's so hard for me to live without him. I've always had a dog in my life and now, nothing. I feel empty and like I'm going kinda crazy.
Does anyone understand how I feel? Is this normal? Am I going insane?
I mean, this sucks to say but my grandfather died a week before my dog did, and I didn't feel this way at all.
One drink was definitely not enough tonight.
Ofcourse we do, its not easy to lose the only thing in your life that was there for you at all times, at this point you feel empty,but dont worry theirs always a light thats going to shine in times of darkness. Stay Strong! and remember what ever happens dont let it put you down you are your own person in this life,sometimes we dont understand why these events seem to take place only to us but everything happens for a reason, their are two sides of the coin we must choose to understand.
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